6: 5 spunky 1

>Why have i not written on here for over two months?

>i'm not sure

> Why am i doing it now?

>Because there's nothing to do, because I had just finished my homework

>I have stories pilling in my head

>Am i writing them?

>No.

>Why?

>I dont know

>What has happened these past two months to me?

>A lot. He doesnt matter at all to me anymore

>I went to prom

>I smoked again

>I'm talking to an old flame

>A friend disowned me by assumption

>She cried

>I cried

>I told a secret

>He told a secret

>I dont know what i'm doing

Today was a good day.

7: Putrid 11

>April fucking Fools.
>"I'm tired of crying", "It's good for you."
>Never let the monster out of it's cage, there is a reason why it's in the cage
>I overcame a fear, "Courageous, strong, beautiful." Is what they said
>I knew deep inside, they said it to stop my agony
>Emotion of 16 years of life at it's edge
>"Prom?"
>He smiled, "Yeah, i'll go."
>My head spinning, my heart palpitating, screams ready to burst from my chest
>I told them, "God, finally. I knew he would say yes, i knew it." They told me.
>Seventh Period, "Hey, i'm sorry i-i cant go. I'm talking to someone and she got mad."
>"Oh, no. No, it's alright I get it."
>My head spinning, my heart palpitating, screams ready to burst from my chest
>"I'm tired of crying.", "It's good for you."
>Who should i have believed? My truth or their lies?
>I'm done.

Today was a good day.

5: 4 physco 7

>Yue, Lluna, Luna, Bulan, Fengari, Maan, Moon
>I shall create my own religion
>The moon is my goddess, she is who i shall be praying to
>I cried a lot
>Sleep is a scarcity, always has been
>I cried
>He told me he loved me & gave me a gift
>I cried
>I knew I failed the test
>I cried
>I met a liar and wondered what people have lied about
>I cried

Today was a good day

1: Oh Freakishly Thirty-Four

>"You had a talent."
>"If you would have listened to me, you wouldnt be worrying about college right now."
>If i had loved the game, I would have kept playing.
>If I would have played the game I would be thinner, I would be faster, I would be great, I wouldnt need to worry about college because it'd be given to me on a silver platter
>If I would have played the game, I would be miserable.
>Because I can kick a ball much better than thousands of other girls, I would have my life set. I would have half the worries I have now.
>But because I can kick a ball BETTER, I stopped playing and the prediction for the rest of my life would revolve around this quote:
>"Why did I stop playing?"

Today was a good day.

9: Forty Bloody Seven

>I watched him stare at me. But I knew I wouldn't do anything. Nor would he.

>"Why am i going to pay $86 for a test you're going to fail?" Thank you for the confidence I have had my entire life.

>I know how to sneak out late at night

>I want to be Joan Jett

>I tasted my old self & missed it

Today was a good day.

9:0 Damningly 6

>He 'appropriately' called me beautiful while my mother called me cruel, ugly and evil

>"Wow, no one has ever talked to me that way."

>My name should have been Clarisse

>It isn't about him anymore. Its about me.

>You dont have a clue about who i am, but you know me.

>"I think you're pretty cute, i want to go on a date with you."

Today was a good day.

9: Fifty fucking Six

>Went to San Francisco
>Blazed.
>Watched a whole God damned play
>Dad finally saw my F+ in Algebra II
>Ate four Oreos
>Finished half of my homework for every subject
>Accomplished the goal of being exactly the child every parent wants

Today was a good day.