Senior Year...

First day of senior year:

I'm not sure what to say about it. No, it wasn't the greatest experience in the whole freaking world and no, it wasn't the most horrible thing EVER (kinda). It was extremely awkward in fact. I didn't like it because of that but that also made me like it as well, no need to impress people I don't know. I just need to find my rhythm to the entire thing again. That's the hardest part of all. I'm out of my comfort spot all over again.

You know? The worst thing is that you could know one person in each class but they got their set of friends they would rather hang out with in the same class. Those, my dear, are called cliques and the thing about me is that i don't really have one. I have my cousin whom i hang out with everyday but she's not a clique, she's my family. Basically, i'm hanging with my sister. Not much of a 'friend catcher' but when i do find one...Jesus. It's one after the other after the other after the other. I 'recycle friends' also. It's great to be a freaking nomad in high school. I live in a bubble of awkwardness.

8: 00

I'm starting school tomorrow. I'm taking a sleeping pill in about an hour.

Oh Cherie Currie.

I wanna be a rockstar with a "dont-give-a-fuck-about-anything" persona. I wanna wear crazy makeup with leather pants and a skimpy shirt saying, "Sex pistol." How would that sound to your mommma?

Home

I'd know it's him when he sings the other half of the song.

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Funny, i dont even know who the hell i'm not.

2: 55

This is the kind of life i wish i had. I would read for hours and simply take breaks just because my eyes began to hurt or because i was hungry or thirsty. Sometimes i wish i could just read forever, be lost in a world that isnt mine because its easier to claim a world that isnt yours then to live the life you already have.

12: 20

I want to learn how to surf. It seems pretty epic to me. Funny how i just have the urge to start surfing the last week of summer. Im a last minute kind of person if you havent noticed and it sucks sometimes. But this is what i want to do and i hope this urge sticks with me for about a year so then when summer comes around i get to get on that fucking board and just shred the waves man.