Would you like to hear silly things?

I didn't fill out my college applications for a CSU because I was too scared of going, and i was more than capable of acceptance to a state university.

I enjoy the smell of cigarettes, is that an omen? Though, i don't smoke.

Is it fair that I'm always the 'mistress' with every boy i get involved with? Is it right that i have a miniscule enjoyment for it?

Sometimes I think of ways to runaway from home, even though my family is perfectly sane and my parents are as perfect as can be.

I want a boy whom everyone pushes away and mistrusts, the more they push and hate him, the more i want.

I think my life is terrible with great grades, confidence in boys, and a well established household.

I'm curious to see how far my rebellious mindset will take me.