Happy fucking new year :) you know, i got really sad during New Years. I normally do. This time though, i noticed how quickly time is passing. Jeeze, 2010 already? I'm graduating next year which places me in a really stressful area in my life. I have to basically figure everything out this year, i have to grow up this year and i kind of don't want to. I mean, i'm excited about it but again i'm really terrified. Wow, i can't be the goofy, dorky kid i normally am. This sucks, i have to really suppress everything i am when i grow up.
On a lighter note i had a nice time at my aunts for New Years Eve. We played some games and ate a lot. I enjoyed spending my time there with them, i also stayed the night which i normally dont do because my aunt and her boyfriend (which is also my cousin on my mother's side, my aunt is on my father's side) always argue. I hate listening to it and it actually scares me a bit. My cousin has issues (he really does) and it scares me a lot. I dont like being around him when he's arguing or when he's drunk. Its not nice. But i stayed up until 3 watching Wonder Woman, it's pretty cool to see that. I love Wonder Woman a lot and the Amazons, they're like these ultra-mega babes who dont need men in their lives, they dont need men to be women. Female power, but then again, i mean, i want men in my life. Please, i wont be able to live without them haha But i just really like how Wonder Woman and The Amazons emphasize female power.
Well i start school on Monday and i have been fighting it. Holy shit, i have never ever felt this bad about going to school ever. I hate school, especially now. I have damn finals the week after amazing arrival. I hate having to go back into reality, i'm at peace doing absolutely nothing and just typing and reading away. God, that's why i think i should persue a career in English and Creative Writing, i can last forever without ever getting bored of it. I'll end up being a teacher though, i already now that deep in my heart. I know i'll become a teacher, it's the easiest way to be connected to literature for the rest of my life. I'll probably get bored just teaching the same thing every single year and having to repeat myself for, like, 5 periods. And believe me, if i get a sassy student...i will slap them into yesterday. My temper is very short, so that makes me doubt becoming a teacher but i'm sure i'll be one anyways.
Well, i'm pretty effin tired. I didnt do shit today except memorize another paragraph from Macbeth, pretty good. I was so into it that my mom came upstairs and thought i was arguing with my sister. I'm pretty good at portraying murderous wives haha
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