I dont have chocolate tonight. I had this huge bar my friend had given me and it took me three days to finish it, that was the chocolate that would supply me during the night. Now, i dont have anymore. Maybe it's a good thing, i'm sure it was killing my teeth and i was gaining a lot. Eh.
I started writing a new story today, it took me all day but i got scenes in. I can never start a story from the beginning, it's just too hard for me. But i was just dying to write the story, i would get frustrated because i didnt have the words to phrase it or just any way to write it. I get upset when i dont have words that can satisfy my story. I think that's why i havent written anything for a while.
But i got to listening to Imogen Heap more and it's blossomed such a beautiful story in my head, well, many stories and i really had to pick one. The one i decided to go with is sort of a life-story. A memoir. It's about a girl who's strength is impalable. She grows up in a simple neighboorhood, the city park being her backyard so she spends a lot of her time there, learning the most from the park actually and also, that's where she meets her soulmate for the first time. She's eight years old when she finds him lying in the field alone while rain pours. Possibly the worst rain fall they'd had in fifty years. So she runs out to the field to see if the boy is alright, he is lying with his eyes closed as if he were asleep. "Hello?" She says, standing over him. "Are you alright?" She continues when there's no movement. "Hey," She taps him with her foot. "Don't touch me with your damn foot." She jumps as he snaps at her, his eyes still closed. "I just wanted to see if you're alright." She snaps back, feeling a little hurt. "Well, i'm fine." He sits up, his body soaked. His hair, a ridiculous black on his silk skin. He looks up at her and shes stricken by his fiery blue eyes, looking velvet, metallic. The most beautiful person she's ever seen, she feels herself cowering inside. "You'll get sick then." She says over the thundering rain. "Then i'll get sick." He glares, "You should've left me alone, i felt good." "Good?" She questioned, accidentally moving the umbrella from her head, getting soaked. "You think getting rained on feels good?" He rolled his magical eyes and walked away from her. That would be the last time she would see him after two years.
The boy comes in and out of her life silently and in the most odd of circumstances but everytime she sees him she is stricken, his beauty never wilts, instead, he grows more beautiful as he ages. It isnt until late into her life when she truly falls in love with him, though, he is a difficult man to love. Though he aged beautifully in the most unreal of circumstances he hides beneath himself, he lives within himself and is at odds when he falls in love with Sophie (the main girl). He can't bring himself to love her the way she wants him to and there Sophie struggles. But soon he finds himself at an ultimatum, Sophie is pregnant and expects him to change and when he convinces himself he is not able to change he leaves her with their daughter.
Sophie loses herself at that moment. A single mother, with their first child, empty without Liam (Her soulmate). She struggles being the perfect mother for her daughter, almost ready to give in to the pain until she wakes when she's ready to jump off the cliff of life. She has a daughter and she was all she had. So from that moment she swears to herself, she will never lose herself ever again. Her strength returns but in different forms that eventually stops anyone from entering into her life, she isolates her daughter and herself until Liam returns three years later breaking her apart. She has a hard time letting her daughter have a father, her trust with him dispersed after he left.
Her heart aches as she watches Liam take hold of her daughter, the daughter he ran away from. But after a long, heated moment when they spill everything to eachother and she hates him for a simple moment, she realizes...she's never hated anyone more than she's hated Liam. For every moment he came into her life, for every thought she had, for every dream at night, for every word spoken, for every wish...she hated him and yet loved him with a passion that could not be explained. She loved him in a way that was unimaginable. It was odd that the person she could love the most, she hated with the same extent.
The family never turns out to be a normal one, though she lets him back into her life at moments and is in her daughter's life forever more, it is not the one she wanted to have but with a love like hers, its unimaginable how she could stop hating him all at once. If you have the power to love someone as much as she loves Liam, what makes you believe that she can't hate him just as much? So, for the rest of her life she continues on with Liam at her side because there is no one more she can love than him.
It's a pretty hard story to write actually, i mean i have it all summed up but it's difficult. I plan to write this real soon but it will take me awhile.
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