11:48

I can't sleep. It's funny how my parents used to tell me to read when i went to bed because it would get me tired. It never worked, actually, reading kept me up like this. Awake at: 11:38 pm. I mean, its no big deal, it's Friday, tomorrow is Saturday so...its fine. I want to write about how much reading and writing seems to take up my entire life, how i am constantly reminded that all i want to do for the rest of my life is read and write. Do you know how much i am in love with Jodi Picoult? How much her work constantly inspires me? I try not to read her books so quickly, it's like eating too fast. You dont savour the taste and thats what i constantly try to do with Jodi Picoult. But it doesnt work at times, her books keep me at the edge of my seat. I flip through the pages actually when i become anxious to know what happens, not because i get bored with the book. God no. I'm just so eager. I love her writing, it's like magic. I can see everything, i can taste and smell everything and most of all i can feel what the characters are feeling. She breaks my heart, she makes me fall in love, she makes me afraid of what love really is for a partner in life, a parent and even a child. Jodi Picoult places me in her books, i am not just a reader, i'm not just reading, i am experiencing it all. She lets me experience situations in ways i can not explain. In every single one of her books she has never failed to move me. I've read lots of books but none seem to really move me as much as Jodi Picoult, i'm not putting any of the other books down. Each is marvellous in their own magical way, but Jodi Picoult nearly stops my heart. It's beautiful, constantly brings tears to my eyes.
Because of the way Jodi Picoult puts readers into the books, my pulse for writing continues. Because i find that feeling so remarkable i want to be able to have that talent as well, i want to be able to pull the reader into the story to experience it. To live it. Because of her, she inspires me to write so much more. Yeah, i'm not sure if i'll ever be a best-selling author but...writing just seems good enough for me. I mainly write for myself, i normally dont show people my stories. I'm not sure why, but i dont. They're all kind of personal. But that's okay, whatever i become...well...i will just become i suppose.